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So I haven't wrote here in a while... and i'm not sure if you'll see this or not, but I will write this to you anyways. I apologize for some of the things I may say or do because I actually don't mean it. You can say i'm almost hurting you unintentionally but consciously. Maybe it's because I think it's what i'm supposed to do after we lost what we had. And don't get me wrong, I still long for it and I think about it everyday... I wonder if we will ever get back together again... or not. Regardless, since we made this decision, i've been trying my best to deal with it. I've actually been more focused since then just to get my mind off of it, but as cheesy as it sounds, I will always have room to think about you. This is probably one of the most complicated situations i've had to go through. We both still act like everything's back to "normal" when we both know it's not. But what else is there to do when my feeling's haven't changed.