Session

Honestly, yesterday was one of the best sessions. First, I had perfect timing with busing there and I got there early at around 4:40. Bought myself a snack and went to the class. We learned about circling and traveling with top rock. I was so glad that Kareen could teach us. At session I was practicing my set and I actually used it in a couple ciphers. A couple of people came up to me and complemented my footwork and threads which made me really happy. I feel like I could only see my improvement when other people see it. Many other people also helped me to improve my set and learned some more stuff from teacher. And I love how they played capsule and everyone was all hyped up. Yesterday was like a make-up for last week's awkward session aha

... I don't know why I feel like this but I just do. Why do I feel so confused and frustrated right now?

Indoo

Rock climbing today was pretty fun. They got this new machine that ballets you. Ahh it was so scary cause it doesn't keep you up if you get off the wall. But it was so fun, I think I climbed at least four walls with the machines. ^^ After we went to long & mcquade for the blowout sale. Sister bought a lot, and I was so close to getting an electric violin and a tenor ukelele. >< If only I had money...

Fuck I haven't cried like this in a while. So many things pissed me off today. Gonna cry myself to sleep.

Ugh

I hate it when I disappoint teachers. >.> I wanted to quit jazz band but the teacher got all angry so I felt bad and didn't end up quitting. Practice felt kinda awkward her knowing that I wanted to quit. Ugh... I thought she would be one of those teachers who would understand.

Nightly thoughts

Since I can't sleep I thought I would share some of my thoughts that are preventing me from sleeping. So i've been thinking of how my life would be if I weren't so passive, or shy. If only I could act muster up the courage to get to get to talk to some people I didn't really get to talk to before. I mean, how will I ever know what kind or relationships I missed out on because of my... inability to maintain a good... conversation? aksjjddhe I dunno what I'm saying, I should just sleep. Anyway, tomororrow's the first day of second semester, you can say i'm kinda excited for it. Hopefully it will be a great as I expect it to be. I've also been thinking about breaking, in particular bgirls. I watched this airchair tutorial by a bgirl and she did a really nice airchair. But she said that airchairs are more easier for girls because they're more "flexible" than guys. That may be true, but i'm as stiff as a tree. lol I feel like bgirls can never measure up to bboys. One day I hope it will, but I feel underestimated sometimes. Just because i'm a "bgirl" people tend to cheer on more in ciphers. I don't mind it but I guess it's cause there aren't many bgirls in the breaking community. Okay wow I should sleep now. Goodnight.

Chibi me?

I was bored. lol

Frustrated

Honestly, grounding me for a month was kinda unreasonable. Really, for a whole month? I think grounding is unhealthy, we need social lives, geeez. Whatever, i'm gonna watch howl's moving castle to cheer me up.